I just broke up with my boyfriend two days ago and now I can’t stop crying. We’ve been together for over a year, and I really care about him, I just don’t love him anymore. I really miss speaking to him now though - we have always been long distance and saw each other in person about once a fortnight, but we texted and facebooked and skyped pretty much constantly the rest of the time. He’s become part of my routine. I feel like he always cared more about me than I did about him, and I keep finding notes around my room that he left with nice little messages to pep me up for my exams, and telling me that he loves me. Now I feel like noone will ever love me again as much as he did, and I desperately want to love him back. It’s so tempting to talk to him as well, because it’s my natural reaction to anything that happens in my life.
He’s also been helping me (well, we’ve been helping each other) to come to terms with the suicide of one of my best friends at the end of January. It just feels like this year has been such a horrible year even without a breakup. I keep on second guessing my decision to end it and I just don’t know how I feel. It’s overwhelming and horrible.